What Choice Do I Have, Bestfriend?

I know you like letters, so here’s a few.
I’ve never felt better than, when I was with you.
But you do what you have to, and I waited for you, too.
Because you're gonna laugh through this, its not me leaving you.

I will never forget, all the fun we had.

Every time I think about it, it makes me feel so sad.

I think about your pretty face, laughing about a joke.

But my pain grows more, when I think how my heart broke.

Did I even mean anything to you?
Or was I just a toy for you to subdue?
I dont even know anymore the real me.
When I look in the mirror I cant understand
what and who I see.

Now it’s my turn to feel nothing inside.
Not a touch of remorse when I wave you goodbye.
Because this doesn’t hurt you as much as it should.
But it will hurt me, because I lost something good.

I know that I meant nothing, i gave nothing true.

If this is as shallow, as pointless to you.
Maybe you lied, you felt nothing inside.

But I was sincere with my heart, and I tried.

Best WIshes to Travis Barker and Adam Goldstein.

Travis Barker and disc jockey Adam “DJ AM” Goldstein were in critical condition with extensive burns Saturday after a lear jet crash the night before that killed four people. My thoughts are with all. Pull through guys. God bless, together lets pray so that they'll recover as fast as they can. Amen!

Why?

Why won't you talk to me anymore? Calls after calls, and messages after messages. But still there's nothing from you. Usually if these kind of things happens, surely you're in trouble and your handphone kena rampas. But this is too long already. I see that you are on myspace on some days, and you reply to everyone that comments. But why won't you reply mine, even if you hate me or if you don't want to talk to me anymore, can i just please know why? It hurts, i feel that my life is incomplete. You were the one that is really a true bestfriend, you were always there for me when i need you. But know, you really have changed. At first, i was sad that you changed drastically, but time after time i thought that people change for reasons and i understood that. I accept if you are busy at times and not there for me anymore, but now? You've completely dissapeared. I checked your space, and i checked your blog. There's nothing that mentioned anything that says that your phone is not with you. God knows, how much i need you and how much i've missed you. I've been messaging you a few times. But you won't answer. I called, the same thing you won't answer. Please, return. I don't care even if you hate me or even if you don't want to be friends with me anymore. Just talk to me for the last time and answer my question. A simple question that haves the hardest answer to answer. The question is.. Why? No matter what, i'll keep talking to you and don't care if it looks like im mad talking to myself, but i will never give up on you because you mean everything to me. Just so you know, im happy to see that you are happy now, and if you want me out from your life and if that's the reason you are ignoring me, then i'll go but just tell me why because i just need to know why. I've been very sad thinking about you. I miss you, fullstop.

Mat Rempits? Cowards. Brothers? Heroes.

Here's what happened, my brother got into trouble with this group of rempits. After sending my girlfriend to terminal putra, i went home. As i was on my way home, i saw 7 bikes and like 30 people at this place called dewan beringin. A few of them was my friends and i asked "kenapa ni?" and this guy said "adik kau kena pukul laaaa". I quickly went inside the group of people and said "dah lah, kenapa ni. kita boleh berbincang" and this dude who had a smelly breath breathes like very garang, but sounded very erotic which was very geli. Haha. The smelly breath said, "kau siapa haaa" and i said "dia ni adik aku, so jangan lah pukul dia". Then one by one whacked my brother, punched him in the face, kicked him in the belly and that sort of stuffs. I then pushed my brother and asked him to go away but he just stood there. that was the only thing i could do, in my head i already knew that i was going to be whacked but if they touch me, they are so dead because they whack me for no reason. Suddenly, aa guy swinged a helmet and my head and kicked me in the belly, and the first punch i received in my entire life. Haha. He puched hard until i was almost knocked out, i felt that my eyes were lebam. All i could think was trial exams the next morning. I ran home and said "tunggu lah korang, mati kau" and they ran away. I called my friends, we are like brothers since 13 years old. Ikram, Eoi, Zab and Golok. Forever they are in my heart, hero gua cakap lu! Haha. They are like my siblings, they came very quick and they were very upset and mad to see that little darryl had a black eye. Hehe. I mengadu laaaa apa lagi! Haha. Then i jumped on Ikram's bike and quickly cari those guys. Dekat tengah jalan besar, we found two of them and tak ada cerita banyak it was like a gangster movie. Tengah jalan parking motor and whacked the both of them with helmets and fortlocks and with kicks and punches to the head. They merayu to stop and to forgive. Ikram took their bike and said "kau nak motor kau, kau jumpa aku kat atas" Fulamak, macam gangster movie kan? Haha. very macho lah ikram, when you said that. Haha. The cars banyak berhenti but only tengok je what happened, none of them horned. Maybe diorang pun tahu little darryl is not the guilty one. Haha. A lot of things happened after that but i think it shouldn't be told. Very ganas and kesian one aaaa! Haha. Here's a special tribute to you guys who taught them a lesson. Ikram, thanks for being so macho and the fortlock to the head. You were like Don Vito Corleone. Haha. Sorry for involving you even if you got away. Haha. Zab, thanks for the flying kick and giving him a helmet tp the head. You were like Bruce Lee. Haha. Sorry for involving you with all of these until you got stabbed with a knive, jangan risau they touch you they are dead. Eoi, thanks for being such a brother that looks after his little ones. you are like Chuck Norris. Haha. Sorry for involving you until you were whacked with a helmet by that old man. Golok, thanks for being the good guy. You were like Jaafar Onn in Cili Padi. Very coooool! Haha. Sorry for involving you with this until you had an arguement with that sabah dude that says "jangan bikin tr-tr-trouble di sini, siapa mau pukul benny? cakap sama saya cakap. orang melayu jangan bikin tr-tr-trouble" Haha. I took my science trials exams with a black eye. The people who whacked me run away and until now tak datang sekolah and they sent peeps to say tutup kes. Siapa tak marah kalau mata kena tumbuk sampai lebam kan. But my girlfriend and a good friend of mine really put a lot of sense in me and i also tutp this kes without revenging and its a good thing because i won't be in trouble again. God bless everyone that helped and in god's name i will be there for you guys, just call me okay? Love.

Vehicle With Two Wheels.

After hundreds of times dreaming of riding this creation of mankind, i've finally bought it with the cheapest price anyone would ever get. Doploh ringgit! Haha. I bought it from a Bangla family and the condition was very teruk, maybe that's why it was doploh ringgit. Haha. Oh, just so you know i bought a BMX bicycle. Not a motor lah, im not a mat rempit. I wish i was but i am not, so slowly slowly lah. From BMX to 125z, from 125z to Panther Jerung. Who knows kan? Hehe. Repairing the bike was sad, because banyak duit i had to use. Then the fun part was pimping it! Haha. I bought a new pair of black and white throttle and sprayed the body of the bike with petronas green color. Then the rims was upgraded to a lot of jejari rims and the tayar was changed to a thick one. Damn, my bike was the bomb! Haha. Credits to Ami for making my bike super, but his bike is way super than mine. His bike is what peeps call "rare" because of the body like Kamen Rider's bike, and with his Star shaped rims, and everything was in silver. Very cantik one aaaa! Anyway, my dream came true but im still shy to go jalan jalan by myself, because my friends always say "apa barang naik basikal weh" and some will say "zaman bila naik basikal weh" and my answer will just be this, "minyak naik harga, mogok ah sket" Lame? Yes, but that's the only excuse i could ever think of. Haha. So, anyone who wants me to carry them just call me lah. I'll be at your place in an hour or two. Lambat? Memang lah bodoh, naik basikal bukan naik motor. Ha ha ha, okay not funny. Well, wait for my bike and ami's bike punya picture. It'll be uploaded soon. Thanks for reading! :D

One Month Without Blogging.

A lot of things can change in a day, imagine what will change for like a month? Too much. I've been pretty busy with life since the last time i blogged, which was Merdeka's day. To be honest, i miss blogging. I just don't have the time to even type a title. Well, i really sound that sad right? Sorry to say that im back muthafuckas. Haha. Be prepared to read all my adven-fucking-tures in this past 30 days i've been missing, a lot of juicy muicy details to let you guys know! Okay guys, im off to start telling you about my stories. Haha. Take care!